It's like, sometimes life has to remind you that it cannot always be easy. Even though I haven't got any specific problem right now (well, apart from the fact that guys are complete knobs who don't know what they want), everything seems to be hard and difficult... I do what I have to do automatically, without really enjoying it, even going out and things like that. Very weird.
But you know, I'm bored of being like this and only being able to write about what I've been feeling since I got back to London; I want something to happen and get me out of this state... But I know that I have to get myself out of it, and external events can't really change the core of the problem, which is that I'm not happy with myself right now, I want to change and I don't know how. Maybe it's my... Crisi mistica, how do you translate that?
Well, I don't know. Blah blah blah.
Poor Paul was sick all day yesterday, he had to go to the hospital and everything... Auntie V (that's my nickname in the flat, bwahahahah) was very worried. But apparently he's feeling better today. He's still at home though (his parents' I mean), so Sophie is gonna go there tonight... Hey, I've got the flat all for myself! *lol* It's actually a bit depressing. This obsession of mine (not wanting to be on my own) is getting out of hand... Mmh.
I'm still moaning ah? Well, if you wanna know something funny, it's taken us two days to defrost our freezer. The problem is, it's the tiniest freezer you've ever seen, and there was like an iceberg around it. Meaning that when I go back to the flat I'll have to get all the water from the kitchen floor into the sink. It's not funny anymore. Shit. XD
What could I write about? I still don't feel like writing about all the things that I've done lately, and it's bad because it means I'm going to forget about them in no time... But I can't force myself to do stuff so.
I really want to update my booklog, I've been reading so much lately. Lovely bones is quite amazing, such a sad book; Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya sisterhood is very funny and interesting (I don't know that much about life in Louisiana between the 30s and 60s, do you?); and I'm about to read American Gods by Neil Gaiman, very excited about that... I'm having some trouble reading Lolita, it's taking me ages, and I also really need to read Heart of Darkness (after watching Apocalypse Now I sorta have to)... Ok, my nerdy-booky moment has passed, and now I'll send you my love and surf properly for once (I'm sooooo behind with my daily blogs list).