I don't know why but I feel like I'm at a turning point in my life, you know, like I'm changing so much, I'm becoming someone very different (and very the same, lol)... It's weird how I cannot explain how I've felt in the past few weeks... I could say I've been feeling like crap but it's not exactly like that, because even though I've been feeling down quite a lot there have been some nice moments, and a lot of thinking which is always good.
Thank you to all the people who left me comments... I appreciate enourmously the fact that people enjoy reading my blog, because in the end my main problem is that I have such low self-esteem and knowing that maybe my life and what I think is not so stupid is a great feeling. So thank you so much. :) And Jana darling we have to go to the Czech Republic together, remember? And see Vaclav (is that his name? I can't even remember) and that other mad guy... And I definitely have to come to Venice (also because I'm not coming to Italy for Christmas as my parents are going to Morocco for New Year's Eve and I'm going to miss my two or three weeks of feeling Italian and speaking Italian)... I'm going to start checking for Ryanair tickets later. Eheheh. I could come for a three-four days during reading week, which is at the beginning of November... Dunno, I have to check work I've got for the week after that...
Anyway, yes, I know that sleeping with someone on the first night is not a good idea at all but... I am someone very physical you know, and sometimes it just feels good to have sex like that, without waiting and without making too much fuss... But now I know that for the future I will have to control myself... The problem in this case was... Well, let me explain. I don't have sex with whoever comes around, or at least when it means something more than just sex. Yes, I do have one night stands and it's alright because I know it's just that. Sex. If 'that' guy hadn't suggested that it was something more than just sex I wouldn't have had so many problems getting over it... I don't know if you can understand, it's probably just my little fucked up head, who knows? La mia testolina tutta matta! :)
I've had a cold for about two weeks now and it's just getting worst and worst, it really pisses me off. I keep coughing. And I keep smoking. Eheheh, I know, it's not clever of me is it?
How good is it when you keep receiving compliments for a dress you bought for 1 euro at a flea market? Seriously.
I could talk about lots of things that have happened lately, but I don't really feel like it... So, please excuse me for that. I'm just settling into my new life, being a proper student and having my flat (which I love to bits), everything is a bit weird...