I don't know why, but there is a lot less feeling of Christmas in Paris, compared to London. Like... Christmas is not in the air, it could be November and it would make no difference. Weird stuff that only I notice...
I spent a good 2/3 hours wrapping presents, not because there are so many of them but because I like complex wrappings, with different papers, collages, paper flowers, ribbons, etc. I can't wait to have my digicam (yes, I changed my mind, and I'm going to buy it tomorrow, hopefully), so that I can take a picture of them, lol. And I'm also in the process of installing a gallery program so that I can manage my pictures on the site in an easier way...
This whole thing with money is obviously upsetting... I mean, my parents have been more or less in debt for so long that I don't even notice anymore, but right now it's pretty bad. It's more obvious... For example, there are less presents around this year (my parents haven't bought any presents at all for each other), and my mum keeps depressing about the whole thing... There has been a whole string of calls to family friends who can help sort the situation out in some way... It makes me feel so bad to know that I am quite a strain on my parents' finances (paying for all of my living expenses in London is A LOT of money, I can tell you that), but at the same time I don't really have much choice have I? I can't leave London, I mean, I would never ever even think of that, I can't, because London is my home, where I want to be... I should really find myself a job and try to help my parents out, but I know they would never accept to give me less money even if I had a job, because they feel it's their responsability to pay for me... It's all pretty fucked up.
Well, there is one thing I can do. And it's already done. I'm not going to Japan for Easter, there's no way my parents can afford ir, so it will have to wait a little bit longer. I've been waiting to go there for so long that it doesn't even matter anymore, another couple of years, I'll have another occasion. And at the same time I didn't feel completely ready to go on my own, so... :) I mean, I don't want to lie, I'm pretty sad about not going, but I don't mind, if I can't I can't and it doesn't matter. Voilà. ^_^
I still have to finished downloading/burning the cds for my parents and my aunt... My last selection is:
- for my parents: The diary of Alicia Keys by Alicia Keys, Folklore by Nelly Furtado, Life for rent by Dido, You gotta go there to come back by Stereophonics, IV by Seal & Sleeping with ghosts by Placebo
- for my aunt: Greatest hits by Red Hot Chili Peppers, Under rug swept by Alanis Morissette, Morning view by Incubus & Hard candy by Counting Crows (I don't know why but I'll think she'll like the last two, or at least I hope!).
So, yeah, my Christmas presents are basically sorted. Which is a big relief, really, I hate having this stuff to do, at least now it's done... Eheheh. Ops, some more presents to wrap (my mum can't be bothered so I'm doing all of them, shit...)!