I feel like my life right now is a complete mess, I feel like I'm not able to control anything, I feel like stuff is happening to me without even my consent, I feel... Shit, to tell the truth. I still need to sort out my computer but I can't seem to find the energy to get it in its bag and carry it to the shop, I need to write emails, I need to take care of my friends and myself, and guess what? I'm doing nothing of all this, and I'm also doing nothing for uni, and everything is just so... Blah. It's not even shit, it's just blah.
I had such a good weekend and now I feel like this and I don't really know how and why this is happening, but what can I do? When I'm like this and I just see the negative side of everything, and I haven't even realized yet that I'm exactly where I want to be, with whom I want to be, I've got everything I've always wanted, I just... Despise myself.
Sorry if this is a depressing post, but I'm not in the mood for anything else really, I just wanted to let know the world that I'm still alive, more or less. I think.