So, I didn't go out on Friday night and I regret it. I didn't do any work yesterday anyway, and then I went out last night and spent 25 quid on getting pissed. I was quite drunk by the end of it and we ended up in a pub in Stoke Newington that is just sooo weird. It's the only pub that is open until 1.30 around here, so you get the weirdest mix of people... Locals and cokeheads and people who are going somewhere else afterwards... We were chatting to loads of people and dancing around and singing and laughing A LOT. I got checked out by about 10 guys, and they were all old and repulsive, but it was quite good fun! *lol* We met the sweetest old man, he was black and going around in this by gray coat with a burberry scarf and matching hanky. He was very sweet... *lol* It was a fun night, but it didn't really feel like a Saturday night... Two weeks until my next proper night out! And two essays to do before that. Ops.
I'm going to James' in a bit, for some food and probably a smoke or two... I still haven't seen his flat so it should be good. Mmh. So no work today either. I really am a procrastinator ain't I... Sniff.
Been thinking about Ryan a lot, mostly because I don't know what to think, I've got mixed feelings about him and I can't really analyze them. I NEED to find someone else, even if it's for one night, whatever, I need to get my mind off him. Or I'll go mad. It's been going on for way too long. I can be so complicated...
I'm seriously thinking about coming off the pill. I've been taking it for so long (4-5 years) that I don't even know if I would be any different off it, maybe less mental? From what I've heard from some of my mates it's so much better to be off it... And it's not like I'm with anyone right now and I really need it. But I'm so used to it that I don't really know. I should have asked my gynaecologist when I went to see her a couple of months ago... Oh well, I'll think about it. If I knew it would make me less mental to stop taking it I would stop NOW, but I don't know so... *mumble*