...I don't think I've ever cried for a film so much. If you know ANYONE who hasn't cried when watching Philadelphia, please tell me. That person is a fucking rock. It was good though, I can't believe I'd never seen it properly.
Everytime I'm alone in this flat, I tend to spend a lot of time in front of the kitchen window... Now, it might seem weird, but let me explain why to you. You look outside that window, and you can see, on the far right, the church on Church Street, then the BT tower and Centre Point in centre, and on the far right Canary Warf with all its lights. And everywhere else, the roofs of London, just London til the horizon. And it amazes me. No matter what I do or how long I live here, I'll never be able to fully accept the fact that I'm here. It's London and not somewhere else. My life hasn't been easy, moving around, but now I've got it all pretty clear in my mind... Rome was my childhood. Paris my teenager years. Tuscany will always be there throughout my life with our family home. But London... It's where I came alive. It's where my life has truly started. It was my dream, and it came true. Even though I didn't really put that much effort in to make it happen, it was relatively easy, I'm still proud of myself for getting here.
No matter how much I like change, this was a fucking big change. Different country, different language, I didn't know anyone... Of course, thousands of people are in the same situation, every year, in London or anywhere else in the world. But still, I'm here. I got through.
Sometimes I wonder what is so magical about London, why I love it so much. I can't explain. There are many things about London that are absolutely shit, but I still love it. I don't think I'll ever be able to dislike this place. It just won't happen. This is where I want to end up living, and call me crazy, but I want my kids (if I ever have kids, lol) to grow up here. And have an english accent. *lol*
It's late, my eyes hurt because I've cried too much, and my bed is calling for me... Together with all sorts of naughty dreams about a couple of guys (I've had loads of those lately!). Bed, I'm coming!