I wrote this exactly a week ago, and I think it's time to post it. Some of it I put in a letter I gave to Jay, and... I don't know, just trying to explain how I feel. I apologize if my posts have been... Well, a bit monotonous, I haven't been talking about much else hey? But you have to understand, this is changing my life and I need to say it to the world.
You've turned my life around, in what, 10 days, and I still can't believe it. When I wake up in the morning you're already there in my thoughts, and you're there throughout the day, and when I go to sleep the only thing that is missing is your arm around me, and forgive me if I'm so fcking cheesy about it, but what can I do? If there is one thing I've learnt since I've moved here is that hiding your feelings is not worth it, and I feel like telling you everything, and I need to tell you that I love you.
Yes baby, I love you.
I love your smile. And your laugh.
I love how you look at me.
I love your hands. And the way they touch me.
I love how we have sex...
I love how you make me want to let you do everything to me.
I love how you make me feel satisfied and realized.
I love your nice green eyes.
I love it when you sing, because you have a fcking nice voice.
I love how you make me feel protected.
I love how you take the piss out of me.
I love the fact that you don't want to act tough in front of other people.
I love that I was trying to be careful not to rush things, but it just happened.
I love you because you destroyed all of my barriers and made me the happiest I've ever been.
I'm at home again, Jay is sleeping in my bed (he's so cute, he falls asleep in less than 10 seconds, like a kid, with a nice peaceful look) because... Let's say I've made him quite tired! I'm reading other people's essays about democratization, bla bla bla. About time I start revising seriously. Lucky this is my easiest exam... I'm already fearing the next one. Argh.
Drinking coffee and smoking a cigarette, I feel happy.