My last exam went... Ok, I answered the questions, not very well, but at least I answered them. I'm quite satisfied, and now I can't believe I'm free free free for three months. This year has gone so fast, even faster than last year, in less than a week I'll be out of my flat, in less than 20 days I'll be in India... It all feels like a dream, life slipping through my fingers again, but this time it's only because so many things are happening, and I'm so happy.
Last night I was closing the window before going to sleep, and I remembered when back... At the end of last year, I used to sit in front of that window, smoking and crying, thinking and feeling nostalgic about I don't know exactly what. And I realized that I stopped doing it, at some point, and I don't know when it happened... No matter what, going through that rough patch, feeling down for six months, now I can see the positive things, and what's important is that now I feel stronger, much stronger than what I was last year. Jay made me the best compliment ever... He said that I really have my head screwed on, that I'm good because I can see the positive outcomes of all of my experiences, and I forget about the negative ones. I guess it's true, and I never knew it was a good thing. It just made me feel so good about myself, because in the end, I always have doubts about myself, and I always think that I'm so weak. Well, maybe I'm not.
Right now I just... Feel happy, about myself, the past and the present. I'm here, I have more than what I need, I feel lucky and at the same time I think I have what I deserve, because I'm a nice human being. If that makes any sense?
I ended up not going to the embassy today, I felt too tired this morning (I felt so dizzy and knackered last night, I didn't even have the energy to get pissed, lol), and I was with my baby, so. Now I'm at his place, I need to start cancelling water/electricity/phone/etc. and I need to get some food. Guess what? I'll get pringles. Bwahahah. I'm obsessed with pringles. XD
Welcome back, darling. :*