i'm here, tired but completely sleepless. i'm having trouble sleeping on my own again... and i just feel so out of place here. let me explain; this is jay's room. being here without him just feels wrong in a weird sort of way. i wake up in the morning and think 'where the hell am i? why am i here on my own?'. it doesn't feel right. it's very weird.
also. today, while i was talking to jay (about james, and how he shouldn't be jealous of him at all), i realized how much on the rebound i really was after i broke up with 'the' boyfriend. in the end, it probably took me about a year to get over him. at the time, i never really understood it... it always shocks me how unaware of things i can be when they happen.
amaranta, marks at my uni work like this... 40% is a pass, between 40 and 50% is a third (third class), between 50 and 60% is a 2ii (or second class lower division if you prefer), between 60 and 70% is a 2i (second class upper division), 70% and above is a first (first class). basically the highest mark you can get is probably around 75% (i've been told before that getting more than that would mean be ready to be published or something like that). final marks are usually made up by essays handed in during the year (20 or 30% of the final mark) and exams (80 or 70%). don't know why it's so complicated... they sure could have made it easier. like at jay's uni... jusy As and Bs and Cs and so on. by the way, my baby got a A- this year. my little genius... kekeke.
i'm bored. my back hurts because i've been sitting in front of this damn thing too much. i need my baby to hold me because otherwise i can't fall asleep... aaah this sucks. sucks sucks sucks.
(it's the first time in probably more than a year that i post at this time at night; and the first time in a very long time i don't feel like sleeping at 3.50 in the morning. i should really try now. not that i've got anything to do tomorrow...)