yesterday i was supposed to meet up with james and... i did! as he didn't go to work (cause: smoking session with his mates the night before) we met up in the afternoon instead. i went to his flat; we had a cheeky one and played backgammon (i'd never played before, so he had to teach me... and guess what? i'm quite good at it! bwahahah), chatting away... it was good to see him again, we hadn't had a proper chat is SO LONG, it was ridiculous. at around 7 we went to see... rod stewart the musical. XD let me explain. his mum's ex-boyfriend (or something like that) is in the show, so he gave us free tickets. it was the first time i went to see a musical... don't think i'd do it again (unless i get free tickets obviously) but it was veeery entertaining. especially with a couple of shots of vodka inside me. *erm* we had two drinks before, one drink in the middle and several drinks afterwards. found out the oh-my-god-so-fit guy in the show is not only 37 but also gay... *sniff* i just wanted to touch his abs... *sniff* anyway, had a chat with a couple of people from the cast, and then stumbled home. i was so drunk i was almost sick in the tube. chatted to random people on the tube who asked what we had seen (we were both wearing these silly 'rod stewart the musical' paper hats they gave us at the theatre, erm)... see, i love london. random people, random people are the best. got home (james' flat in kennington; after asking jay if it was ok i decided to stay there, because i couldn't be bothered with trains...), sat on the balcony for a bit feeling ill (i started throwing up and then stopped... argh) and then passed out in james' bed...
a very funny night on the whole, a right giggle... i'd missed getting drunk with james, that guy's so much fun. and we talked lots, about relationships mostly. discussed the fact that we don't feel 'right' unless we're with someone, which is so very true. i have this theory which i've already told quite a few people about; you know how in every group of friends there's always that girl who's almost never single, or at least has always got something going on with someone? well, i'm afraid i'm that girl in my group of friends. it's a scary thought, it really makes me think about myself. you know, where's my independance? at the same time, i can't really change the way i am, and now that i've found someone who is so right for me, there's nothing wrong with it. but in the past this 'characteristic' of mine has ofter led me into a lot of trouble... see ryan, see tom, see basically every sort of romantic/sexual thing that has happened to me in the last two years. as i was saying there's nothing wrong with such a behaviour, if you're lucky, if you find the right person, which is what has happened to me with jay. so, what is my conclusion? guess there isn't one. i've just realized i have a side i didn't know or i hadn't acknowledged too much until now.
today i basically haven't done anything... got home from james' at around 11 (he went to work at like 8, poor guy), had a shower, had a nice salad (yes, SALAD, i'm trying to eat healthy, kekeke), watched some tv... and that's it basically. i'm thinking too much today; must be because i'm feeling so damn hungover (i could try and promise to myself that i won't get so drunk ever again, but i know it's not gonna work), thoughts develop in my head so slowly that i can see them and analyze them over and over again... yeah, i'm definitely the queen of introspection.
jana-babe, surprisingly enough, i didn't take any topless pictures myself. i've got some, but they're kathy's (mostly from before i came down to omisalj), so i guess she'll put them online herself? apart from the fact that i've just found out i've got almost no space left on the server. grrr. don't know what i'm gonna do... probably put offline my scans or something.
someone give me something to do! that doesn't require me to go into central london and spending MORE money on transport... argh. think i'll buy fimo online and start experimenting with it... bwahahah.
tav's funeral is tomorrow morning. it's probably gonna be miles away, but i really want to go (first time i'll go to a funeral. horrible things). sophie & paul will be there as well, so we'll probably spend the day together after that... which should be good. and kirsty is getting into london tomorrow afternoon, so tomorrow night is gonna be let's-get-very-drunk-and-silly night.
i've written a lot more than what i intended to, as i usually do. it feels good though. i love long entries. they make me feel lighter... more free. don't know. i'm talking bollocks. lol. love you all, all over the world.