i'm all on my own in jay's parents' house, which feels weird. i've decided to come up here because his parents are away and he's only working 4 hours today... so tomorrow morning he'll drive me to stansted where i'll catch my plane to freezing cold scotland (apparently. kirsty has reminded me at least 4 times to bring a coat; but i'm not taking one, i've just got a very very big jumper, hope it'll be ok).
i left my flat with my room in a complete mess. mountains of stuff all on one side by the window (had to make space for the landlord to change the wardrobe). seriously, i hope he'll put a chest of drawers in as well, because he was being very vague (he already had a new wardrobe, so he knew the damn thing was falling apart... grrr). i hope i'll have enough space to put all of my shit. i need to give away stuff, i need to. X(
on monday i met up with greg to have a drink in king's cross, which was very nice. we were chatting about travelling and languages and such... it was fun. i always like to meet people i know from the internet. when i think about it, it's something i've been doing for so long. since i was 13 basically... and i've only met freaks twice, i'd say. *lol* and jana, who is one of my best friends in the whole wide world, i met her like that. and lovely ana. the internet is just wicked...
the only problem is; jay feels uncomfortable about the whole thing, and i haven't been dealing with it the right way, so i ended up upsetting him and feeling very frustrated because i couldn't explain things to him... but we're fine now. i think we've reached a point where... i don't know, we admit to our mistakes. and we're really trying to improve for each other. it's so... weird, it feels so weird, so grown up, so proper. i'm just so in love. there are no other words to explain how much i need him and miss him and want him, all the time. *^^*