i went to scotland last week to see kirsty, which was great, despite the mud. we went to this wicked world music festival in the forest of aaaeee (still don't know how to pronounce that, how would you pronounce 'ae'?), and generally just had fun, talked, smoked, got drunk. it was nice, especially considering that kirsty is now in tanzania, other side of the world... *sigh* i went to the airport yesterday to see her one last time. it was sad, very sad. i can't believe i won't see her again until april... seems so far away! i'll miss her loads, that's for sure.
apart from that, i now have a cold (think runny nose, horrible cough with green stuff coming out of my throat, headaches). to top it all off, jay and i have been having quite a lot of trouble, arguing, crying, feeling miserable. things seem to be better now, but... i don't know. i don't really know what do. he's coming to pick me up in a bit, and i hope we can talk and enjoy each other's company and just treat each other like we deserve. i love that boy so much. i don't (can't) lose him now, and i'll do everything i can to make things better.
i haven't been a very good flatmate, which really depresses me. tonight i'm off again, sleeping at jay's, and i feel really guilty. i need to sort my life out, seriously. also, at the moment, i own about 15 £, and that is ALL the money i have until tomorrow or more probably monday... so no going out for me this weekend (it would be a bad idea anyway, considering my health at the moment).
but yeah, i'm enrolling at uni tomorrow. i can just hope things can get better now because i seriously feel like shite. it sucks.
and i hate whining like this. but well.