next wednesday i'll have broadband. not just in my flat, in my own room, for the first time in two years... bwahahah. XD i'm happy happy happy. if it wasn't for the fact that i had to pay for it on my card (couldn't use my mum's), so i spent 25 £ on the modem + microfilter and 30 £ on installation fees + first month's broadband... sniff. i think i'll have to ask my parents to give me 20 more quid a month (and i feel terrible, i am a spoiled brat), but if i don't... it's just too many things adding up at the moment, and i just wish the damn insurance company from my storage would call me and give me the money for my ruined shoes. i sooo need it right (and deserve it as well)...
apart from that, everything's good. i've decided what courses i'm doing, i've enrolled for all of them, everything's sorted out. so this year i'm doing south east asian literatures in translation, gender and development, hiv/aids and development, the global refugee crisis and state & society in asia & africa. they all seem to be very interesting and A LOT of work, but well... it is my third year, i need to start being serious about all this.
i've been talking to so many people at uni, i can't stand it anymore. *lol* thank god i've got tomorrow off...
things are good with jay... i don't know, we're just going through a rough patch i think, relationships are a lot of work and compromise and whatnot... but yeah, things seem to be better now. i hope. i don't know, i'm really scared it's all going to fck up majorly and i'll lose him but... i'll do everything i can so that it doesn't happen. i love him too much... and that means that i'm too involved, maybe. i don't know, i don't know. it's a confusing & confused issue at the moment.