so, i'm back at uni. lectures start properly this week, which is... a hassle really; i don't feel ready for this, despite having had a good summer and more than enough rest, i just don't feel like i'm completely here. the fact that i still have no money (no matter how much money i get from my parents i seem to spend it all within the first week, and it sucks majorly, obviously) doesn't help at all... today is just a sucky day, but i'll get through it. i've got stuff to do, readings to do, i had a lecture this morning at 9 (and i made it, even though my concentration wasn't at its best... lol, i was about to fall asleep), and another one this afternoon. tonight i just want to chill out, be at home, watch tv, play the sims, whatever. just CHILL OUT. i do wish jay was with me, but then... i don't think i've spent enough time on my own lately, i'm becoming too dependant on people, you know. so yeah, just a night chilling out at home...
yesterday was ok; met up with my dad in chalk farm, walked to camden town (i bought a stripey throw for my bed, and badges, one of them says 'piss off' and i'm wearing it right now... lol, you can imagine that i didn't wake up very well this morning), then he came to see my flat... i think he liked it, and he finally met sophie and paul... the only thing that he didn't like was this car at the beginning of our road which had had its wheels taken off... erm. *lol* then we went to brunch with my brother, who managed, in the 10 minutes we spent together without my dad, to piss me off majorly (he's such a twat. and that's it). when i got home, dee was around, so we just sat around, smoked and drank wine, talked lots, and soph cooked us dinner... it was lovely and chilled out. but i regret it now... i got way too drunk. *sniff*
i miss jay. it's silly but i do... i wish i could live with him, i really do. it would make everything so much easier. we're not supposed to see each other again until the weekend, and it feels so far away... we'll probably end up spending a night together before then... lol. we can't stay away from each other for too long. and it feels so good... :)