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Monday, March 21, 2005

i'm off home to paris tomorrow night, for a week. my mum is already planning going to the countryside somewhere in france, maybe she didn't understand that i've got WORK TO DO?!? i hope we'll just stay at home quietly and i'll be able to write this essay. well, i need to, really. after that i've got 18 days to write another two essays for a grand total of 7,500 words. yay. -__-
anyway, let's not stress about that (yet). i've just spent 5 days with jay, and it was... not perfect, because there's always a couple of arguments, a couple of things that go wrong, but as perfect as it could be. we procrastinated, watched a lot of tv, kissed a lot, went to the cinema twice and spent a lot of time sleeping... until 12, 1 in the afternoon; and there's nothing like waking up with your legs intertwined with those of the person you love, with a warm hand on your hip, with a face you adore in front of you...
before he drove me home today, he came out of the bath and sat on his chair, and he looked so sad. because he knew he was going to miss me so much, because we'd just spent time together. he said he was gonna miss waking up next to me, and lazying around, and kissing, and just being with me.
i cried out of happiness.

Posted by Vanina | 23:08 | Comments (2)

2 Comment(s)

Ana said:
awwww...So nice... Have a nice time in Paris (Ah,Paris-so posh :) ) and get some rest between essays.Happy Easter.Love you...Ana

On Wednesday, March 23, 2005 at 21:54.

karl-heinz said:
hey there!just read your posting and it kind of makes me sad.end of last year i went out with this guy that i liked for 3years and just when things started going good he broke it off.the time that we spent together felt like the best times in my life.we told eachother things we never told anyone before and it made us grow closer,but seems it wasnt close enough.we decided to stay friends and i have been trying to get over my feelings that i still feel for him.its just been so hectic because i see him every day and its so hard because sometimes i just want to hold him but i know i cant.i just miss being close to him and being open with him.i dont think i will ever tell him that i still feel more than just friendship toward him becuase im scared it ruins the friendship that we have because still being able to spend time with him(even though we not having a relationship)served me well.and sometimes it feels as if he feels the same way as i do but im scared to make a move because i dont wanna ruin anything,to scared!but how will i know if i dont try?but its just to hard,i cant bring myself to do it!and i was reading your posting about counting crows song colorblind!and yes,it makes me cry as well!i can listen to it over and over and each time the song will mean something more!it has a deeper meaning!and this whole story with the guy that i still love tears me up inside,it makes me cry for no reason and makes me morbid.i even have become so cold and rude towards him because i want him to feel the pain that he has caused me,but i have realised that its not right...i will only drive him away!i even went out with other people just to try to get over him,but my attemps were in vain!i fuck people around just to get over my shit!its so frightening!on thursday it will be 4months since he broke it off,but i love him more than i did before!distance makes the heart grow fonder.in my case 4months with very much of an emotional distance has made me grow way to fond!im really not the person i used to be,feeling depressed and sad for absolutely no reason.guess love makes one say and feel stupid things.but it was nice to share my story with a few people.thanx.and yes,i am a boy...who loves a boy!

On Tuesday, March 22, 2005 at 20:00.

Because a picture is worth a thousand words, and I cannot describe my life better than a picture can.
And because my heaven is here, I'll wrap the world around it and live in a cocoon. Quoting from a favourite song, 'Letting the cables sleep' by Bush, in its incarnation as a remix. And I do wish the friend who introduced me to the song was here to see the way things turned out.
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This blog was opened on October 8th, 2002 and this version, the fifth, was uploaded on November 1st, 2007.

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