meeting jay...
Wednesday, June 8, 2005
it was lovely, for a number of reasons. we ended up doing naughty things which we shouldn't have done but by that point i just had to!!! *lol* we talked a lot. all the things i'd thought about were true. the conclusion was basically that the relationship itself had nothing wrong with it; it was just the wrong time, wrong situation. jay said he does have feelings for me, maybe love maybe not, he cares about me a lot, he fancies me a lot, he likes me a lot. but he wasn't ready for that sort of commitment i was looking for... which i guess for my age is a bit too much.
so the conclusion? we'll go off. do our own thing. still talk and be friends. see what the situation is when i come back next year. in some ways i know i've opened myself up to a lot more hurting this way; he admitted himself that he is being selfish and immature. but maybe... maybe... all this will pay off.
i'd rather have an open ending that a sure conclusion. maybe i'm silly?
Beh a me personalmente i finali aperti lasciano più libertà e calma... Riesco a continuare a vivere, le rotture improvvise e nette me lo impediscono e mi mandano in crisi come scrivevi tu nei precedenti post.. La conclusione si vedrà più avanti, intanto riuscirai ad andare avanti col cuore più leggero, magari sarà una fine diversa da quella che speri ora magari no, però credo che lasci energie in più... Faccio il tifo perchè le tue speranze si avverino.[spero che si capisca qualcosa di quel che ho scritto...]