i wake up every morning around 6 or 7 and cry.
i'm so tired. physically and mentally. i don't really know what to do with myself. i really just want to go to sleep and sleep forever.
i need to move out by the end of the week. in a week's time, i'm going to be leaving london for a long time. i'll only be back for a few days for graduation and then probably not again until 2006. this is all so scary and it's just the wrong moment for me to feel this lonely.
how do you cope with losing your best friend? not being able to tell that person everything that's happening to you? i can't do it. it's driving me insane.