what am i going to tell him when i see him today? that i'm still in love with him? that i want to be with him? he already knows, and what good will that do?
i just cannot believe that there's nothing i can do, nothing i can save. i want him so bad and there's nothing i can do about it. i have to let go even though it's the thing i want the least in the world. i just can't do it. i can't let go.
i don't know what i'm expecting tonight. maybe i'm still expecting he will see me and realise he's in love with me. but how...? how can i think that when i know it will never happen? how can i expect him to make me happy when i know he doesn't want to?
i'm tired of crying. i'm tired of feeling this way. i wish someone could save me from this pit of misery because i just can't take it anymore. if he won't save me, who will?