in scotland at the moment. i left london yesterday morning, just in time basically. stupid bombings. i really don't wanna go back next week.
graduation was great. can't believe i'm a graduate now. i was wearing the whole gown thing and heels, and i didn't trip and embarass myself in front of the whole uni, wow. :) it was fun.
as for meeting jay... i knew it was a bad idea, i just didn't know how bad. i love him and i hate him. i adore him and i despise him. i want him and i wish i never spoke to him again. i feel like i'm back to square one... fck. i can't be bothered anymore.
i am so tired of all this. i want to enjoy myself because it's my right, this is my summer, i am free, i am young, i have a bright future in front of me. all ruined by some stupid guy who doesn't deserve me. doesn't even deserve me talking to him. and still... i can't give up. even though i know i am so much better than him in so many ways.
i'm so bored of this.