December 2005 Archives

So.
Here we are. Another year is about to end, another one is about to start... Seems like life goes so quickly!
What can I say? This has been one of the worst and best years of my life at the same time. So much has happened: I have cried, laughed, read, watched, drank, danced, kissed, travelled...
This year i've met and spent time with some amazing people, I have had so much fun, and shared so many moments with friends I know will be close to my heart for the rest of my life.
The times I was upset, exams, the end of uni, graduation, my 21st birthday, my first big trip on my own... And so many more. I have been extremely happy. I feel like I've grown and opened my mind up more than ever.
And all because of some of you, and for that I've got to thank you.
You know who you are: I love you to bits. I will be thinking of all of you tonight... Thank you for being who you are and being there for me when I most needed you.
I hope you have fun this NYE 2005 and I wish you all the best for 2006.
For me 2006 will be the year of new starts, new adventures, less anger and less sadness, even more laughter and a lot of partying, more independence, travelling and time with my friends and those I love whenever I get the chance. You can consider that my NY's resolution!
I hope I'll get a chance to see all of you this year. Know that I miss you and can't wait to see you again.
writing this made me cry. i don't know who to thank for giving me what i have. i am truly grateful and i can't wait to see what else life will bring me.
have a nice NYE everybody!

i couldn't resist the temptation when i saw that this is going to be my 1000th entry. three years, many countries, many people, and one thousand entries. not bad hey?
here in sigli everything is going well, i'm working working, having fun, building experience... missing home every now and again, but well, you can't have everything.
christmas was good, big lunch with lamb chops, steaks, olives, bread and such other luxuries (they are here!) and lots of beer. i've been feeling a bit ill on and off but am feeling better today.
not sure what's happening for new year's eve - we might be meeting andrea (one of the young guys who worked here and has just left and also one of my favourite people around here, sigh) in sabang, an island/resort to the north of banda aceh, but it's not sure. otherwise it will be the party at medecins sans frontieres right here in sigli... we'll see!
life goes and life goes. i'm learning so much, and not just in terms of work but also in terms of human nature, feelings and relationships, and ultimately i am learning a lot about myself.
two months out of europe and six weeks in aceh...

You're everything I could want
There's no house you couldn't haunt
You're the key that could keep me in
You're the sense under the skin

I won't bring you roses
I'll bring myself instead
Time only is time
For what is meant
Not what was said

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You're a dream I could wake up in
You're a fight I shouldn't try to win
You're the door I'll always leave open
You're the heart that's always hopin'

this song came to my mind as i was thinking of someone... someone, someone, i want to be cryptic but i don't want you to think of the wrong person. i'm losing track of what's important, that's for sure. but anyway, it's someone i shouldn't be thinking about too much - but not someone i shouldn't be thinking of at all (which sometimes happens, and you're right, i am being stupid, after that email... fuck).
seems like i've messed up on all fronts, somehow. people ignoring me, maybe, or just being busy? well i know one person is ignoring me for sure.
tomorrow will be the end of wireless internet for a bit - we only had it installed to try it out, now we'll see if we'll get it or not (i sure do hope so). btw, i don't think there's anyone around good enough with computers to access my files - and tbh i do everything on the net (emailing, posting, etc.) so it shouldn't be a problem right?
it's been raining non-stop since this morning (it's 6 o'clock now), and not just normal rain, it's a fucking tropical rainy day, floods; to walk from the guest house to the office (about 20 metres, give or take a couple) i had to literally wade through rivers. bored bored bored. watched a couple of ER episodes but now i really can't be bothered, and almost no one has emailed me, and i can't keep bugging people with general emails that don't actually say anything.
tonight we're going to a restaurant, western style, here in sigli! i'm going to have a nice juicy steak - i seriously never thought i'd miss western food as much as i do. it's crazy. i see people in films eating big, fat, greasy burgers and i envy them. it's ridiculous. :)
was talking to a friend in london on friday and she told me she was going out to mass. gooood. i want to go out and party. seriously. and get incredibly pissed or something. i guess it's a good thing somehow, that i can't drink out here (alcohol is illegal or something, so they don't sell it anywhere), considering i'm already smoking lots and eating lots. and doing even less exercise than i normally do - i literally walk to the office and back, or if i'm lucky to the car and then from the car to wherever i have to go. i'm becoming a fat lazy slob. *sigh*
i'm not even in a bad mood. just meh.

we have wireless internet...! yay. XD never thought i'd be so excited about something like this.
but, i've just written lots of email out of excitement, so i don't really know what to write here. will be back tomorrow though... XD XD XD

all is well in sigli. i'm working, eating lots, sweating even more, occasionally drinking beer, sometimes making pizza (actually only once, last night, and to be completely honest, i only watched!!!), talking to a lot of people, making friends, sometimes being very lazy and watching too much tv (such as today).
with this internet connection it's really hard to update. but i will make a point of doing it more often, i promise.
i'm hot, dammit. it's seven o'clock at night, dark outside and it's STILL 30+ degrees. it's december people! gimme some cold!
(not the sort of cold they have in europe though. something like... 25 degrees? LOL)