bought this box of chai from the coffee shop in banda aceh; stupidly expensive (10 dollars) but definitely worth it... and it's lovely, with locally produced honey in it. mmmh.
decided to watch brokeback mountain after reading jana's comments on it. so we'll see...
but i'm keeping away from the real issue here: will i stay or not? i haven't received a reply from milan yet, but what i'm thinking is - they cannot dare denying me the money or the flight or anything else. it's not just the head of mission who wants me here, but also the bloody director!
but if i stay... last week i thought i couldn't wait to go away. now i see it a whole lot differently. apart from the fact that i'd be earning some money, it would be SO good for the CV and in terms of experience as well... 8 months working for an NGO in aceh, come on. it'd help me get into the masters i want to do; and the work is interesting, i like the people... it's a bloody big thing, because it will mean 9 months or more away from home, but... i can't let this chance go. i've actually started thinking in terms of career, you know.
am i not all grown up ah? :)
in the last couple of days i've also tried to eat less and keep count of calories, cause i really wanna lose these four kilos i've put on in the last two months. i think i need to start going running or something though, cause i do even less exercise here than i did before, dammit. i walk to the office, that's pretty much it, and the office is 20 meters away!!! so yep, i need to start thinking about it, also because i've been smoking way too much and i feel like i need to be healthy. which is why i'm also trying to drink 2 liters of water or more a day... shame it makes me pee literally every 30 minutes. sigh.
my ipod is completely gone, can't listen to music anymore because it doesn't read it - thank god i managed to backup everything using ephpod. now i'm trying to download the ipod updater thingy, which is taking forever considering i'm on dialup and it's 45 mb... argh. already spent the whole of yesterday downloading itunes...
i'd say overall i'm pretty relaxed though. whether i stay or i go... i'm happy with what i'm doing, i'm happy i've been good at what i've done since i've been here. i'm proud, you know. i'll get somewhere, and that's all i needed to know to feel better about everything.