almost ready to go. all my stuff is ready to be packed, documents and flights have been sorted out, i've exchanged rupiahs into dollars... i'm so excited, i can't wait to be out there again. i'm really looking forward to a few days on my own in kuala lumpur and then seeing my mum and my aunt... it's going to be so much fun.
the first day in KL is going to be all in favour of pampering myself and treating myself... so i'll be going to the hairdresser (it's decided, i'm going blonde again), beauty salon and then doing some much-needed shopping (i never thought i'd miss it, but i do, i really do, call me a dirty capitalist if you like... lol). the suria klcc centre (the shopping centre under the petronas towers) has mango, zara and... TOPSHOP! which is nice since they sell those really nice, simple tops in all colours and the one i have here is falling apart. i also need some nice sandals, earring for my ear piercing (lost it in sabang), possibly a watch, and i want another nice summery dress. also, of course, a couple of books... i am terrible, really. :)
i'm a bit scared, really. i just... i haven't been to a big city like that in months, and i think i'll feel a bit lost. how silly - like my mum said, i've lived in big cities my whole life, i shouldn't be scared of anything. but i am, i've lived in this tiny, limited place for a while now and it gets to you.
at the same time, there's all these things that i've found out i consider essential that i will get back for a while - hot water, restaurants, cinemas, bookshops, culture, supermarkets... all sorts of things that seem so normal to me and that have been lacking completely from my life in months. i feel so psychologically and mentally constrained. i do really need to get out... so i will. :)