May 2006 Archives

how unlucky can this country be?
probably not going to java in july then. i wouldn't feel safe, god knows what's going to happen next. it makes me so sad how bad indonesia is getting, it's just a tragedy after the other. between natural disasters and civil wars (or almost), it's not going too well is it.
btw, we didn't even feel it here, we're so far. the good thing is this country is also fucking huge.
do i sound cynical?
i'd even told philippa to spend her holiday in yogyakarta. thank god she decided to go to lake toba instead.
sunday on my own, nicolo' is gone to banda aceh for the whole day. meh. need to find something to do.

so all of my photos from my two-week trip have been uploaded, and since i'm the proud owner of a flickr pro account now, you can find them all in one set here. enjoy!
have been feeling sort-of-ill for the last few days and that worries me, what does this place do to my body? i need to face up to the facts: i miss european climate, call me silly but it's true.
there's only three of us expats in the office at the moment, which would make for a lonely time, but bell'uomo is here and we're... well, let's just say it's been lovely. i feel cared for. i'm gonna miss him when i leave, but i'm preparing myself for it and... i'll be fine. i always am.
and i guess that's all of my news, because remember, nothing ever happens in sigli, pidie district, aceh. ever. :)

laos was amazing. i'm going back in july and i've got this half plan in my head of trying to get work there once i'm finished with postgrad. it's such a beautiful country, with beautiful people: it's the romantic idea of a third world country with a colonial past i had in my head. i will write more at some point.
bangkok was good fun, as usual; the trip back was a bit hellish since i left the hotel in bangkok at 5 in the morning and got here at 7 in the evening, and i went through 5 different airports on the way, and three different passport controls. it had its interests though, it's one of those travelling stories to tell, no?
getting back was half depressing half not; we are now seriously depleted in terms of expats, but i have stuff to do and spending some really nice time with people here. life in this place is weird, so out of this world.
in the last few days i've been thinking about two people a lot, and i've realised: i love you. i am not in love with you (and most probably will never be), but i love you so much. i wish we could have something more than what we have, in a lot of ways i do because i know how great you'd be, but i realise it will never happen and i am ok with that. wrong time, maybe wrong people, at the end of the day, but i feel blessed to have met you. you have been and are incredibly important in my life, and you've made me realise a lot of things about myself. and maybe it will all end at some point (i know it will), the weird half relationship part, but that doesn't matter. thank you n. and g. you know who you are.
and so i'm going to stop being cheesy and going to sleep because i've had a headache for three days, and it worries me how my body reacts to this place. i don't know if it's psychosomatic, i'm not unhappy really, who knows. i'm happy i'm leaving in a month and a half though.
and one of these days i'll tell you about my plan for travelling throughout south east asia in july.

after almost five days, my adventures in kuala lumpur have almost finished.
i have done a lot of: walking amidst pollution; cursing; shopping; sweating; overall spending a lot of money; eating; drinking beer; smoking a lot less than in sigli; etc.
today i write in lists.
now it's raining and i think i'll go into my room, eat dairy milk (mmmh chocolate, or little britain style, choclet) and read, possibly finish, another one of my books. aaaah life is sweet in the civilised world.
i might cry when i see my mum tomorrow. :)