in exactly 4 weeks i'll be off to cambodia, laos and thailand. yay! my plan has changed another zillion times, but i think it's reached perfection now. i've got temples, countryside, rivers, colonial towns, pretty beaches, lazy islands, the lot. nice and balanced. i can't wait.
yesterday i got pissed off with n. for something silly, and somehow it triggered many bad things and i ended up crying my eyes out for a while and feeling utterly miserable. but it turned out to be sort of ok this morning and a lot better this afternoon. checking out a few guides on south east asia and getting some cuddles made a real difference, i have to say. :)
in one hour or so we (francesco v., n. and me) will be off to banda aceh for a party for christian, who's leaving next week. everything has a taste of something that's about to finish right now, and it does make me a bit sad. but i'm all for living the moment so i'm trying not to think about it too much.
tomorrow morning we will be going to a nice beach not far from banda aceh and coming back here in the afternoon. i can work a bit more on my suntan, eheheh. i have this plan of going back to the uk soooo dark people will die of envy. bwahahah. :)
my dad sent me the sweetest email; he said 'make a list of everything you will have to tell me so you don't forget' and 'the most wonderful and cosmopolitan city in europe will welcome you, and then the next one'. i recognised myself in that last sentence, because it sounds like something i would say... i miss my dad, i really do. i can't believe i haven't seen him in 7 months.
by the end of all this i will have been away for 9 months. how different will i be? how different will europe be to me? but i can already say: these 9 months will have been oh so worth it. i have completely fallen in love with south east asia.
home away from home, like london, paris and pretty much every other place in the world. i am a stranger wherever i go but i settle down wherever i want. i love that, i love being without a hometown, a homecountry.
but i'm losing myself here, and i need to pack my bag. life is a lot nicer than yesterday and SO much nicer than a year ago.