most of my monologues (because that's what they're becoming, rather than conversations - oh, how great it is to be self obsessed) nowadays start with "i've got so much work to do *weird whingey noise* *whinge *whinge* etc." it's becoming pretty bad.
apart from my natural propensity to whinge (i'd say it's a family trait among the wittenburgs), i do feel my life is absolutely tragic right now. which is utter bollocks, to be honest, but i hate economics and stats and find anthropology so hard i feel i deserve some sympathy and really, among my friends, my academic life does feel tragic.
one good piece of news is that i've (more or less) decided what i want to write my anthro essay about; it will be about constructions of identity and nation-building in indonesia, with reference to benedict anderson (of course - the genius) and more generally to the discourse on the constructions of community and culture. of course i will need a much more focused approach but i'll get there. i now own a copy of "imagined communities" which i will duly read this week so i can decided what i want to focus on. the use of language in nation-building would be a pretty interesting approach and something i find extremely interesting - even though i am very tempted to write about the appropriation of the angkorian past by the khmer rouge, just because angkor is one of the most beautiful places i've been to (silly reason, i know, but still very tempting).
i've been trying to make things as easy for myself as i can, especially re: essays. so whenever i can relate the topic to something i've done during my undergrad - count me in baby. i've got enough work as it is without having to go and look into completely new topics. right?
other than that, my weekend has been good, tiring, exciting, weird, unexpected, and a whole lot of other things. friday was spent in london visiting kirsty; friday night was spent getting drunk in the wolfson bar and then filth; saturday was spent sleeping; saturday night was spent in the wolfson bar and then at the st. cross halloween bop (and later wondering around town and meeting my coursemates in all sorts of weird ways); sunday was spent again sleeping and having lunch in christchurch (in the harry potter refectory, how cool is that?!?); and sunday night was spent cooking and eating with my friends in my kitchen. i need to start getting photos off facebook and uploading them to my flickr account really. oh, maybe later. oh, and of course, all the cryptic stuff down there relates to something else that's happened which is very nice. very, very nice. mmmmh.
now i really need to do some economics, then go for dinner, then go to the winter ball committee meeting (again! once a week is too much, seriously) and then, of course... the bar. oh my favourite bar ever.
i will stop whingeing at some point though, i swear.