i have controlled myself, i have done what i thought was right and for once i have been honest with myself and others. it might sound like a small thing, but to me it is a huge step. i just like to banter, i really do, and i need to learn to leave it at that.
maybe it's the realisation that what i need in my life right now is not a lover or a boyfriend or an 'arrangement', it's friends. people who care about me and will support me just as much as i support them.
i'm being cryptic, i know. there's just a lot going in my life right now and sometimes it doesn't seem right to talk about things openly. i do apologise for that.
in seven hours i have to get up and get ready for matriculation. shit. i've done it again! (seriously, my social life is insane - i should really stop and do some work instead)
it's nice to meet lovely people like this. i do really like my life right now.
(i'm just hoping my sore throat will feel better tomorrow)