i feel like i'm finally on a roll. sure, it's only just started, but it's been pretty good so far - i've done most of my readings for my anthro assignment yesterday and today, and spent about 5 hours doing stats in the library this morning/afternoon. i'm getting back some sort of will to do things and study, and i'm loving it because i finally understand things (it might take me a while, but i'm not stupid, you know).
...i don't actually dislike stats so much right now. i got into it and i guess i've realised you can do some pretty amazing things with them. god, how geeky of me.
today has been rainy, rainy, rainy and it worries me because... what if it doesn't stop?!? what if this is the beginning of the oxford rainy season?!? i don't like having wet feet.
my plan for the next three days is to work, work, work. and well, maybe go out tomorrow night. but i need to be disciplined, i've got to do it. i want to get the most out of this. someone from my course has already dropped out, and it feels weird because - well, i have considered it on several occasions already. of course it's never going to happen, but i need to be more positive about this. i'll make it through.
my complete lack of desire for men, relationship and everything that comes with those things persists, and that gives me quite a bit of satisfaction. it's something i've been craving for such a long time, and i feel a lot stronger for it. i just need to get on with it and... well, stop being a bitch. my problem is that i flirt too much, and that always has negative consequences. maybe i can learn to do it in ways that are... harmless? can you do that?
the two beers i've had in the wolfson bar tonight are making me talk too much; i do feel guilty for not posting more, but if you had any idea of how busy i've been... it's insane. and you know what, i'm loving the intensity of it all, it gives me energy, desire to do more, work more, learn more, socialise more. i've always considered myself to be extremely lazy (in a lot of senses) and it's just not the case anymore. and i've also started to appreciate my loudness and embrace my italian side when it comes to it. :)
facebook is still eating away at my life though. i can't believe how often it comes up in conversation...
and tomorrow, i can finally have a bit of a lie in (9 instead of 8) - good enough for me! to do list: laundry, new toothbrush, anthro assignment, second part of the stats chapter i've started, and then stats class in the afternoon. tomorrow night i've been invited to a housewarming party and apparently (according to charlotte) it's going to be a 'big night out' with all of my hooooomies. ah ah. shall be fun.
i don't actually mind never having any time to myself - is that weird? i like always having something to do. maybe student life really is for me.