i've been drinking too much. and, since i'm still ill (it's been 10 days dammit!) i get drunk on like two beers, which is a bad, bad thing. at least my first lecture is only at 11 tomorrow. it'll be fine.
i've lost my ER dvds and that really pisses me off. 75 quid worth of dvds... god knows where they've gone. sigh.
have another date on thursday. should be good fun. i need things to keep my mind away from bloody economics and stats, so it's nice to have stuff happening in my life.
other than that... i'm just so constantly busy that when i'm not i feel guilty and have to find things to do; so basically between studying and socialising i never have any free time. it feels good. it feels good to be finally busy and active and doing something with my life... i was so aimless for the past year that it makes such a huge, positive change.
a lot of me is still messed up about a lot of things, but i'll get through. i just need to keep myself as whole as possible, when it comes to work, relationships and friendships. i need to control my instincts because now is NOT the time to do something silly.
you know what though... i am happy. i am happy i am doing this and i can see how by the end of it i will feel so incredibly proud of myself, and nothing can beat that. now i just need to go through with it. i will get there.