here i am, on a break from one of my anthropology essays (the last one! and surprisingly painless to write), reflecting on various things that have happened lately and are going through my head, such as:
* how i wish i could be writing an essay on homosexuality in animals like one of my friends is;
* how beautiful wolfson is, in this marsh state, with the water on the river higher than i've ever seen it - daffodils just poking from the water, and trees growing out of a lake, it very much reminds of cambodia and scary boats on the mekong river;
* how i love this place in many ways, and how i feel part of a family - i enjoy how familiar it all is, walking through the quad and there are i. and c. working in the library, say hello through the window, and coffees sitting outside the upper common room discussing anything and everything, being part of the lives of so many people;
* how distant london and london life have become, and how it makes me a bit sad - but there's nothing to do really, i cannot change the reality that my life is here now, mainly because i do not want to;
* how i almost had a nervous breakdown this week, due to being ill for the upteenth time this year, and work piling up, and feeling scared about exams;
* how knowing the dates for my first two exams (april 24th and 25th) makes no difference at all, but being rational does - i have over six weeks to revise for these, and it will most definitely be fine;
* how i'm glad i finally got a more than decent mark on one of my essays (69 for my essay on interviewing);
* how i need to start taking pictures again, for myself and the 365 days project, but also of my surroundings, my friends, my life, my 'home';
* how i need to start cooking for myself more because, let's face it, hall food is disgusting and i cannot stand it anymore;
* how contradictory my life is, always, happiness, sadness, moments of stress and chilling out, intellectualism and drunken nights out, anthropology and economics, love for certain people and distaste for others, social life and academic life...
how confusing, all this. and do pardon me for the bullet points, but this is one of those moments when i need lists and structure.