i am such an idiot. i have missed a meeting with my supervisor this morning (the second time in a couple of weeks, at least not the same supervisor both times!), and now she cannot meet me again until next week. both times because I was too distracted, so when she told me tuesday the 2nd (when it was in fact the 3rd, and she wanted to meet me on monday) i only focused on the tuesday bit, even when she sent an email to confirm. sigh. i am so absent minded at the moment, it's really worrying me. i think the whole moving thing has really taken its toll, and i've been stressing out far, far too much.
i am now living in m's room, until they give me something else - which might not happen before we move into our flat in mid-august. as of now, the 'other' room is completely empty. i literally refused to move anything into it, so my stuff is scattered all over college (i's room, my storage locker and m's room). i just got so worried and stressed out, and last night when i found out m did something silly with an earring i gave to him to repair (long story), i got very upset, and then felt guilty because i was being mean to him.
i thought once term was over i would be fine, but the idea of doing my own research is terrifying me, and that combined with everything else happening is driving me slightly nuts.
hopefully it'll get better once I actually start doing all this, going into london. it also might stop me from being as lazy as I've been in the past few weeks... i just feel like i have no energy and the only way to change that is to actually start doing what i'm supposed to be doing, i think.
i need a cup of tea to calm myself down now. i can't believe i've missed this meeting. i seriously need to wake up.