To be perfectly honest, I feel like rubbish. The last two years have taken their toll, and I was never the strongest person anyway. This transition is turning out to be so much harder than what I expected, not because of any actual failure, but because of my own failures in making it. It makes me wonder if this will ever become easier, if I'll ever feel better, if I'll ever feel like I can do it.
I'm tired of feeling this way, tired of sitting here doing nothing, tired of making excuses for myself. But how do you get out of a rut? Especially when that rut is entirely created by your mind? It's like going through having to write my thesis all over again, and I don't want this to also become the painful process that I went through last year.
I'm tired.
Hi Ruchika! I'm another lurker that has been reading this blog for a while. Now I am currently in the MPhil and just wanted to give a note of encouragement to both Ruchika and Vanina. Good luck!